Saturday, July 21, 2007
i want to say sorry.
hannah, i know this is like the dont-know-how-many-times im saying this but, i really want to say sorry. i know its no point crying over spilled milk, and there's nothing i can do to make amends. im really sorry i failed as a friend. i should have stayed with u. u made such a great effort in arriving early, making mushrooms, making juices, brownies and i just, just left. i know that deep within u are not smiling and saying "never mind!". i know. pls dont hiding ur feelings. i know it when jiayin scolded me awake tis morning. she's right, if i know thats wrong, i shouldnt have left. im really worse than a piece of da bian. sorry hannah that u have to have a friend like me. a friend who doesnt know how to stay by u. i'm really sorry.
hannah, im already very grateful u choose to be my best friend. im really sorry i've let u down. i dont deserve to be ur best friend anymore. in fact i dont deserve to be jiayin, shuwen, weien's best friend too. thank you for forgiving me. but i know the scar is still there and it wont go away except maybe through time.
thank you so much for everything. for always being there for me. for lending me ur physics file, for all those funny memories we shared, all those madness we had, suan-ing each other, everything. thank u.
although u may not consider me ur best friend anymore, i still consider u as mine. and forever it will be this way. i will remember u as a loving friend who is willing to make sacrifices for her friends. im sorry i disappointed u. im sorry i left u that day. im sorry i didnt do a good job as a friend. im sorry.
this is my fault, pls dont be angry with my other friends. cos i decided for myself to leave. its a wrong decision i've made. a decision that hurt u and the people around me. im sorry.
jiayin, shuwen, wei-en, i also want to say sorry. i've hurt u guys the same. sorry.
m e s m e r i s e d 8:20 AM
