Monday, December 24, 2007
he dropped by my home yesterday but i wasnt home
he brought us our christmas presents
i'm glad i wasnt home
i'm not sure if i will be able to face him with a smile
i'm not certain if i would be able to hold back those tears
i opened the present he gave
pencil, ruler, eraser, sharperner
for a kid
how long i've waited
since i was a little child
i've waited...
i've waited so long i've forgotten...
i thought it will never come
yet its here
a simple gift from him to his little child
late it may be,
i'm still happy its from him
all these months i pushed him out of my mind
i didnt want to think about him
the thought of him brings back awful memories
memories i didnt want to remember
once they brought fear
then they brought anger
now they bring about sadness and pain
i dont want to see him
i dont want to meet up with him
but i miss him
i want to see how he's doing now
does his leg and back still hurt?
is he taking good care of himself?
does he know that he's forgiven?
but when i see him i've got to put on a emotionless facade
i would not show him i care about him
its so difficult.
it really is.
pencil . ruler . eraser
you're late
but you're here.
m e s m e r i s e d 10:05 PM
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
woo hoo! :]
i went for my kidney check-up at NUH today.
haha, as always, the appointment time was 3pm but i waited till 5pm before it was my turn.
yawnz.. :O
my blood pressure was super low as usual. but i dont feel sick or whatsoever.
so the doc asked me to eat more salty stuff :S
yesterday's asthma check-up was the last one i will ever have for the rest of my life.
i felt kinda sad cos NUH had been my second home since the age of 3.
the nurses there all know me cos i will always get admitted to the hospital once every month bcos of asthma. that was when i was young.
now that i've grown up, i'm well. so the doc told me i didnt have to come for check-up anymore.
sigh, it sounds dumb, but i felt as if a tiny part of me was gone.
i'll miss the doc and nurses.
thankfully i will still have my kidney check-up yearly.
but it will end soon when i reach uni.
my kidney aint giving me any problem so i dont need an operation.
for that im truly thankful :]
Joshua's party was fun :]
we attempted to play "the game of life" but didnt know how to
so we played BINGO!
haha. then we played sherade(spelt like that?!)
hehe. the food was good and i enjoyed playing with their doggy-jojo :D
o ya, i ate a dove chocolate and saw the secret msg under the wrappers
" Send a love letter this week"
T.T
how random can it get?
haha.
p.s btw, smthg wrong with my tag board :O
sigh, help :O
m e s m e r i s e d 7:57 AM
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
原来雨天也能让人感觉那么的温馨 :]
记得有一天放学后也是下着大雨. 功课很多所以不想留在车站等雨停.
数到三就冲! 一... 二...
"小妹, 一起走吧."
是一位太太. 她的雨伞不是很大, 可是当时的我真的很开心 :]
今天也是个雨天.
轮到我为别人撑伞了.
感觉真的很开心 :]
到医院的路上, 心情很紧张.
第一次独自到医院看医生.
但是友善的德士司机让我从上车到下车都一直笑个不停.
"小妹啊, 你是福建人啊?"
"不是啦, 我是朝洲人."
"哦! 那个煮粥然后很吵的人啊? 煮粥了, 粥很烧所以要吵一下的人啊?"
"哈哈! 啊."
"啊=鸭. 你要吃鸭啊?"
"对啊我小时后啊嬷每次买鸭肉给我的."
"你的啊嬤下雨也去买对吗?"
我吓到, 我的啊嬤真的是这样.
他还知道我的啊嫲每次给我钱我都不拿.
还知道我姓李.
现在想是满奇怪的, 可是他讲一大堆笑话, 真的超好笑!
i'll never forget this taxi ride :]
m e s m e r i s e d 2:41 AM
Sunday, December 2, 2007
once again she's a made herself a fool.
she thought she would never have to go through this again,
she told herself she wouldnt,
yet here she is.
but its different this time.
she has grown up a little.
she understands the meaning of contentment,
and she's learn to face it with a smile.
she is grateful for this dream.
it had been beautiful.
thank you.
.
she has had more than she could ever ask for.
its enough.
now its someone else's turn.
and she is happy that someone else will be as happy as she had been.
only that it will not end like hers did.
it will continue till the end of time.
she's back in her own world.
a place where she can take refuge.
a place where she can enjoy her solitude.
he has changed.
its time she move on.
m e s m e r i s e d 7:38 AM
